Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
Fear only exist in mind...???
Hello Everyone.....
I don't know whether I am getting busier or lazier....but whatever it is, it is not good because ..having a blog and updating it only whenever I have the urge is no good." Might as well U don't have one..."...I heard the inner voice inside my head is saying....and I have heard it so many times, it has lost it's significance...the thing about blog or note in FB is, it allows me to write whatever I feel like writing or feel like telling the world...things that have great impact on me and wanna share with people around me esp the people very dear and near to my heart...but sometimes, it is either they are too far away, they are too busy to listen, they could not care at all or for the very fact that what is important and big to one person is really of no big deals to many other people....
Therefore...be able to let it out in the open on computer screen...is as good as telling someone...and if the writing is up to my own standard, then I just hit the publish button and out it goes for the world to read....and if they are below par...all I have to do is keep them as draft for editing when I am in my productive moods or if I just hit the miraculous delete button...all the effort and time spent writing will be reduced to nothing...gone forever, well..technically speaking...yes, they are gone...
Anyway...yesterday, while driving on my way here for a conference...I missed the exit to Ayer keroh and had to drive all the way to Merlimau/Jasin exit...which is about 30km away...Why did I missed the exit,..??Other then the fact that there were way too many heavy vehicles on the road almost filling up the whole stretch of left lane...My mind was also very busy with so many things...thinking and talking to myself, all at the very same time...and yes..you are right...I am currently in Malacca...staying at the Equatorial Hotel and writing this entry instead of out there..having dinner with friends..going for fresh ikan bakar or even strolling at the nearby Jonker Street...
Probably one of the very first sign of aging is our laziness to be out there for no reason...I have no reason to be at Jonker Street..I am not hungry, again no reason to go out for dinner and even the smell of freshly grilled fish does not tempt me to spend my evening outside the comfort of my room...oh my...oh my...I don't want to grow old and become senior citizen yet....!!!!!
Oh my....My mind has wandered outside the topic I wanna share with the world again!!!
Anyway...
Back to the highway yesterday...I paid the tol at the Merlimau exit and was told that I would be able to go to Bandar Hilir much easier from here than making a U turn to Ayer Keroh...and of course, I thought so too...BUT soon..I found myself driving on a deserted road and started doubting myself...am I on the right road?But I did not see any junction since I paid the tol...??Could I have missed it...??Impossible...!!!Oh My...I was thinking real hard if I should take another route, when I saw the light at the end of the tunnel....YES..!!! I could see the road was coming to end at the T junction and there was a signboard...and silently but happily I said Alhamdulillah...many times until I lost the count.....
At the end I saw the sign board to Bandar Hilir,and though I was very apprehensive and unsure,somehow..there was a deep seated feeling that everything will just be alright...all these while, whenever I travelled for the very first time any where, somehow I always managed to find the place without difficulty, as if God has always been there for me...be it day time or in the middle of nite...on busy or deserted roads...God has helped me everytime...and probably because I had almost always believed it...never felt fearful and doubtful...and whenever I encountered problem on the road, almost instantly helps came in so many ways and forms...I could not stop feeling grateful, eventhough I thought it was a normal everyday kind of thing....and this time, yet again God has shown me his love, guided my instinct and giving me confidence...despite being on that different route and road for the very first time, I reached my destination smoothly without a hiccup... from A to Z...longer and different but smooth all the way...and precisely at 5 minutes to 6pm...I parked my car at the hotel Basement carpark.( shhhhh!!!! don't tell this to anyone...BUT the carpark in this hotel is the lousiest one I have seen and been to so far...)
Thinking and pondering...I am very thankful to The Almighty...despite all my shortcomings, my wrong doings and all my sins...He has been very generous, merciful and loving towards me....Alhamdulillah.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
Kalau anda tidak dapat melindungi mereka, janganlah jadi golongan yang menyakiti mereka...
Telah lama saya tidak menjenguk blog ini, apa lagi menulis sesuatu atas permukaan putih jernih ini.Bukan disebabkan kesibukan yang melampau, juga bukan kerana terlalu kegersangan idea yang mahu dikongsikan dengan dunia maya, lantaran alasan yang boleh saya berikan adalah kegagalan untuk meningkatkan motivasi diri agar menulis terus, walau tiada yang mahu membaca.
Hari ini saya mahu meluahkan apa yang terbuku dihati setelah melihat dan membaca tentang beberapa perkara yang agak menyedihkan berlaku kebelakangan ini.Saya juga cuba menulis sepenuhnya dalam Bahasa Malaysia, satu bahasa yang mudah dan indah....walaupun sebenarnya agak susah juga untuk dizahirkan dengan petikan jejari pada huruf2 pada kekunci komputer ( gagal di sini..?? ).
Hari ini, cuaca agak baik, mendung sekejap tanpa langit menitiskan airmata, namun ada masa nya agak terik panahan sang mentari, jadual harian agak padat dari pagi hingga ke malam, memenuhi kehendak kehidupan di maya pada ini.
Agak berbelit bahasa yang saya gunakan..?sukar untuk difahami..?Cuba untuk menjadi seorang seniman, walau hanya pada tinta....mungkin suatu percubaan yang gagal....kalau begitu takdirnya, baik saya menulis terus apa yang mahu di luahkan...
Tadi terlihat seorang lelaki bersama seorang wanita dan dua orang kanak2 berusia antara 9 bulan dan 4 tahun.Lelaki mungkin si ayah dan wanita tadi adalah si ibu...yang menyedihkan saya adalah, ketika ayah tadi bermain dan berbual bual dengan kanak kanak tersebut, beliau juga terus terusan merokok dan kelihatan nya amat selesa dan bangga dengan perbuatan nya.Bagi saya, sikap ini amat tidak bertanggungjawab dan si ibu tadi juga tidak cuba untuk melindungi anak anak beliau dari diperlakukan begitu...Kenapa saya berpendapat begitu..??
1) Seorang ayah patut menjadi contoh terbaik kepada anak anak, apalagi pada usia begitu muda.Merokok didepan anak anak bukan lah sesuatu yang boleh dimasukkan dalam kategori baik..
2)Semua orang tahu merokok membahayakan kesihatan kepada siperokok, tetapi kesan bahaya ini lebih buruk kepada orang disekeliling yang bukan perokok, apa lagi kanak2 yang sedang membesar.Paling malang sekali mereka tidak memilh untuk berada di persekitaran tersebut..
3)Anak 2 tadi yang telah terbiasa dengan asap rokok sejak kecil, besar kemungkinan akan menjadi perokok pada usia yang terlalu muda, tidak hairanlah kenapa begitu banyak peningkatan jumlah perokok di dunia, terutama didunia ketiga walaupun usaha untuk menyedarkan masyrakat tentang bahaya rokok semakin banyak di jalankan dan harga rokok juga semakin mahal.
4)Kanak2 tadi adalah golongan lemah, mereka tidak tahu dan tidak berupaya untuk mengelak dari
terdedah kepada asap rokok, walaupun bukan atas pilihan mereka, namun secara tidak langsung dipaksa oleh ibubapa tadi untuk menerima apa juga kehendak ibu bapa tersebut,amat malang sekali apabila ibu bapa lebih pentingkan kehendak sendiri, dari keperluan untuk melindugi anak anak.Ini terbukti dari apa yang terjadi ke atas kanak2 berusia 2 tahun yang hangat diperkatakan dalam beberapa suratkhabar akhir akhir ini.
Saya memang tidak berhak untuk menilai ibubapa yang terlibat, kerana saya tidak memakai kasut mereka, tidak berada di posisi mereka dan tidak melalui ranjau duri kehidupan yang mereka lalui, saya cuma tertanya2 tentang beberapa perkara apabila membaca kisah menyayat hati kanak2 berusia 2 tahun yang tidak berupaya tersebut dan sepatutnya dilindungi dengan apa cara sekalipun oleh ibunya..
1)Si ibu telah menerima ugutan melalui panggilan telefon pada pukul 11.30 pagi, bahawa kanak kanak itu akan di ajar secukupnya kerana telah kencing merata2 dirumah oleh lelaki yang disyaki, tetapi beliau seolah2 tidak mengambil kata kata ugutan tersebut secara serius dan tidak mengambil apa apa langkah pencegahan.
2)Apabila lelaki itu datang mengambil si ibu pada pukul 5.30petang dan memberitahu beliau bahawa kanak kanak tersebut telah koma, beliau tidak bergegas balik, malah singgah di kedai untuk membeli lampin pakai buang dan hanya sampai dirumah pada pukul 7.30 petang.Anak yang katanya sedang nazak, tinggal berseorangan...astagfirullahalazim...Saya boleh bayangkan penderitaan kanak2 tersebut dan walaupun tidak pernah kenal beliau, apa yang berlaku keatasnya membuatkan saya menangis...Al fatihah untukmu wahai penghuni syurga.
Dari 2 peristiwa diatas, saya boleh mengambil kesimpulan bahawa keprihatinan ibubapa terhadap tanggungjawab melindungi anak2 mereka semakin terhakis dari jiwa sesetengah dari kita...nauzubillahminzallik.
Apakah penyebabnya?Apa yang perlu kita lakukan?bagaimana mahu mengubah dan mengatasi perkara tersebut...???
Banyak persoalan yang perlu dijawab, banyak tanggungjawab yang mahu dipikul, ramai yang terlibat, malah setiap dari kita bertanggungjawab...jangan lah kita menyalahkan kerajaan pulak apabila gagal dalam menjalankan tanggungjawab paling asas alam kehidupan...wallahualam.
Semoga kita jadikan setiap perkara yang berlaku dipersekitaran kita sebagai iktibar, yang baik jadikan pengajaran dan yang tidak berapa baik, dijadikan sempadan dan marilah kita beriltizam untuk melindungi golongan yang lebih lemah dan tidak berdaya, bukan sebaliknya, insyaAllah.
Kata2 terakhir dari saya:
Kalau anda tidak dapat melindungi mereka, janganlah jadi golongan yang menyakiti mereka...
Saturday, April 7, 2012
May your engine never run out of fuel

Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Unfortunate Incidence....

- kenapa BIBIK...? mula2 dipanggil baby....dah besar jadi BIBIK....
- Bibik anak Penyek....lahir 15/3/2011
- Bibik 3 beradik...cuma dia yang ada sehingga hari ini..
- Dia paling manja antara semua kucing....setiap kali balik rumah...Bibik sambut...sebelum saya sampai pintu...dia dah berdiri depan pintu dan sebaik pintu dibuka dia menerkam masuk....terus kedapur....ingatkan lapar...tetapi apabila diberi makan...dia tak nak...akhirnya dia mengikut saya kemana jua....duduk dan baring pun sebelah.....manja sungguh
- Bibik tengah mengandung....sapa punya angkara..??kurang periksa....kesian dia..
- Apa terjadi pagi tadi?? Almost 7 am...dah lewat!!selalunya I leave the house by 6.50am the most....tetiba Anis was screaming from outside asking me to close the autogate..saying the cat was trapped...I closed it...she screamed/crying the cat was not moving...I went to the gate...my heart skipped a beat, my BIBIK was there motionless...I felt her body, soft and still warm....but she was gone...carried the body, put on the pavement...ohhhh God....no injury but her mouth was distorted on right...and her right hind leg was bleeding...cannot see any injury because of her fur....but there was lots of blood on the gate...i am still trying to figure out how did it happened?how could such thing happened?I didn't hear her screams?did anis hear her??The gate move very slowly.....why couldn't she escaped...? I spoke to her...I stayed with her for only 10minutes....I didn't feel like going to work...put her in a bag...put on the table on the terrace and told anis not to disturb her until evening...
I feel so sad...I cried all the way to work...and it was jammed like mad and took me almost 2 hours to reach my hospital....(usually only 15-20minutes..)And am still crying while writing this entry...luckily, this is nearing cny...usually hospitals are very quiet during this time....and i boleh layan perasaan sedih sorang2...
People may say...alaaaa....kucing saja pun....!!! I think my family members know how much i love my cats...they are part of the family, they share my food etc...husband I kata, I love the cats more...to some people or my family members...it seems that way because I have no other expectation of them other than being cat...being themselves...I accept them for what they are and their limitation...in totality...that is why you won't hear me marah or pukul my cats...to me...they are here in this world to be loved and that is what they are getting....unlike human beings...
It will take sometime for me to recover from this incidence, I probably have to put the blame on myself...I should have put them back inside the cage...if only...!!!!!!!
I just feel very helpless now...until my next posting, I NEED TO REMEMBER THIS....TIME IS THE GREATEST HEALER OF ALL....so until it happen, I may cry from time to time thinking about this unfortunate incidence....until then...I shall live with passion...:-''((
Monday, January 9, 2012
Sebaik baik PERENCANA & PELAKSANA.....
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Purpose of anything in life
Assalamu'alaikum wrt wbt...
Hari ini baru 4/1/2012, bermakna baru 4 hari kita berada di tahun 2012...namun saya merasakan sudah terlalu lama kita berada ditahun ini kerana kepala sudah pun sarat memikirkan berbagai masalah hasil limpahan dari 2011.
Saya baru menyedari beberapa perkara dan tidak pasti bagaimana perkara tersebut boleh berlaku.
Ada yang berlaku diluar kawalan..
Ada yang boleh dikawal tetapi tidak ada daya untuk mengawal, mengapa?alasan pulak kurang jelas, bukan sahaja kepada orang lain, malah yang empunya diri sekalipun kurang arif tentang yang tersirat dalam yang tersurat.
Walau bagaimanapun, saya percaya setiap sesuatu kejadian, ada hikmah dan pengajaran yang terkandung dan boleh dijadikan panduan dimasa2 akan datang,walauppun sudah terlambat untuk saat dan ketika ini, anggap sahaja lah apa yang telah terjadi sebagai sejarah, yang baik dijadikan teladan dan yang kurang enak, harap harap boleh dijadikan sempadan dan benteng dimasa2 hadapan...
Saya masih berada di hari terakhir bercuti...cuti panjang hujung tahun.Percutian yang penuh suka duka ini bermula 22/12/2011 sehingga hari ini....hahahaaaa....lamanya bercuti!! ada sesetengah orang berkata...ya...mungkin agak lama dari kebiasaan, sehingga saya pulak semakin lupa diri bahawasanya saya perlu kembali bertugas menabur bakti kepada mereka yang memerlukan khidmat bakti yang tak seberapa, harus bagaimana saya mengembalikan semangat untuk kembali bekerja...???
Saya perlu mengingatkan diri saya tentang tujuan saya dilahirkan dimuka bumi ini...bukan semata2 untuk menjadi penghuni yang disogok segalanya, saya perlu membayar masa saya disini yang amat terhad, justeru saya perlu memanafaatkan setiap hari, kalau tidak setiap detik yang saya ada dengan sesuatu yang berupaya saya beri kepada orang lain, sesuatu yang bermanafaat kepada orang lain,lantas ini mengembalikan saya kepada fitrah kejadian manusia dimuka bumi ini,mahluk satu2 nya didunia ini yang diberi akal fikiran untuk membezakan yang baik dan buruk sesuatu perkara...
So, everyone...
I am just trying to remind myself that every single one of us has purpose in this world,every single element in nature has specific purpose for existing in this world.Many of us has'nt find that very purpose, still wandering around, feeling unhappy, miserable, lost and bored...
So the question is, how to find or identify that purpose?where to get it?where to find it?is there a manual sold about finding your purpose??Some people think, they need to go to a far away land to find that purpose, some even go somewhere else to find themselves...no wonder they could'nt find their purpose, they have even lost their " self "....hahahahaaa....what a joke!! not amusing at all...gggrrrhhhhh!!
Well, you don't have to move your butt to find your purpose, you can find it at that very spot you are sitting on...all is needed is think and take action.
Firstly, we must realise that we are not here on earth rent free...there is no such thing as free ride or free meals etc...we are here for a job...we are here to live to serve, not only serving Our AlMighty as a thankful gesture, we have to serve other people as well, based on what we can give rather tha what we can get...that is to base on purpose rather than an outcome..
I myself haven't really find my true purpose, the ultimate reason for my existance, but I believe,one of the purpose is to make this world a better place than it was when we arrived,to add value to the world, to enable other people live better, be they are at present or in the future without destroying the existing world...
There are so many aspects of life value could be added onto....hahahaaaa....we'll never short of them...in education, technology, health and beauty...to mention a few, not forgetting the less tangible and yet more important like happiness...so come on guys...no need to be very serious...be more flexible, there is no hard and fast rules, your purpose may even change from time to time...or during the many ongoing events in life...but the essence is still similar, to serve others, the only change probably is in the way or method your services are delivered...the vehicle..
So...now that we finally understood that every single elements in nature has purpose, we realised that LIFE IS NOT AN EMPTY SHELL....it is full of purpose, therefore we are looking forward to living each day, so we can fulfil our duty and serve our purpose of existance...
Waauuuuhhh!!! I did not realised I have written so muchh....or did I ??Time flies huhhhhh.....
Until my next posting, just remember that WE ALL HAVE OVERDUE RENTAL TO PAY FOR OCCUPYING THIS EARTH....until then..live with passion, enjoy your purpose and take care...







