Unfortunate Incidence....

Hello everyone....

Assalamualaikum semua....

Hari ini 18/1/2012, bermakna telah 18 hari kita menyusuri liku2 perjalanan kehidupan di tahun 2012...beberapa hari lagi, kaum cina akan menyambut perayaan tahun baru cina...tahun baru ini adalah tahun naga....apa signifikannya tahun naga...??entah, saya kurang arif,tetapi yang saya tahu,ramai yang mahu dan akan melahirkan anak ditahun ini....begitu juga kucing saya yang bernama BIBIK.....mungkin akan melahirkan anaknya tidak lama lagi kalau tragedi malang pagi tadi tidak terjadi....

Menangis air mata darah sekalipun....kucing saya tak mungkin akan hidup semula...Yang buat saya terkilan adalah atas beberapa perkara/fakta tentang BIBIK ini...

1. kenapa BIBIK...? mula2 dipanggil baby....dah besar jadi BIBIK....
2. Bibik anak Penyek....lahir 15/3/2011
3. Bibik 3 beradik...cuma dia yang ada sehingga hari ini..
4. Dia paling manja antara semua kucing....setiap kali balik rumah...Bibik sambut...sebelum saya sampai pintu...dia dah berdiri depan pintu dan sebaik pintu dibuka dia menerkam masuk....terus kedapur....ingatkan lapar...tetapi apabila diberi makan...dia tak nak...akhirnya dia mengikut saya kemana jua....duduk dan baring pun sebelah.....manja sungguh
5. Bibik tengah mengandung....sapa punya angkara..??kurang periksa....kesian dia..
6. Apa terjadi pagi tadi?? Almost 7 am...dah lewat!!selalunya I leave the house by 6.50am the most....tetiba Anis was screaming from outside asking me to close the autogate..saying the cat was trapped...I closed it...she screamed/crying the cat was not moving...I went to the gate...my heart skipped a beat, my BIBIK was there motionless...I felt her body, soft and still warm....but she was gone...carried the body, put on the pavement...ohhhh God....no injury but her mouth was distorted on right...and her right hind leg was bleeding...cannot see any injury because of her fur....but there was lots of blood on the gate...i am still trying to figure out how did it happened?how could such thing happened?I didn't hear her screams?did anis hear her??The gate move very slowly.....why couldn't she escaped...? I spoke to her...I stayed with her for only 10minutes....I didn't feel like going to work...put her in a bag...put on the table on the terrace and told anis not to disturb her until evening...

I feel so sad...I cried all the way to work...and it was jammed like mad and took me almost 2 hours to reach my hospital....(usually only 15-20minutes..)And am still crying while writing this entry...luckily, this is nearing cny...usually hospitals are very quiet during this time....and i boleh layan perasaan sedih sorang2...

People may say...alaaaa....kucing saja pun....!!! I think my family members know how much i love my cats...they are part of the family, they share my food etc...husband I kata, I love the cats more...to some people or my family members...it seems that way because I have no other expectation of them other than being cat...being themselves...I accept them for what they are and their limitation...in totality...that is why you won't hear me marah or pukul my cats...to me...they are here in this world to be loved and that is what they are getting....unlike human beings...

It will take sometime for me to recover from this incidence, I probably have to put the blame on myself...I should have put them back inside the cage...if only...!!!!!!!

I just feel very helpless now...until my next posting, I NEED TO REMEMBER THIS....TIME IS THE GREATEST HEALER OF ALL....so until it happen, I may cry from time to time thinking about this unfortunate incidence....until then...I shall live with passion...:-''((